I want to be

I want to be a better person. i want to have goals in life. I want to have some, any, teensy idea of where I am going in a year or five years. But right now i can barely decide what i want for breakfast. I feel like i’m sinking to the bottom of a dark hole. maybe the hole comes out the other side of something where there is light. but for now its getting darker and darker in both directions and I barely have the energy to think about the destination.